obfuscated girl

internet navelgazing

"The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are negative, fearful, resistant, doubtful, and/or selfish.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others. "

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why i love mke, sometimes

Haven had DJ'd at the local goth club that evening and was very, very depressed. Who wouldn't be, it's a fucking awful place, the Goth club with awful, awful patrons. There are almost never more than 10 people at this sadly overdecorated shithole, the owner actually regularly lecturing the DJ's sternly about the fact that they absolutely have to con at least five or six of their friends into coming, that's why they were hired. I can't really imagine how you could keep friends long after they spent a night at this nasty little dork magnet of a bar, but maybe goths are different. The only time there are any people in this place nights on which bands like "Lockjaw" or "Crowbar" or "Pig Clamp" or "Bile" or "Whore" or "Forcips Brain" or "Brain Cleave" are playing. I made some of those names up.

This would be funnier if I didn't secretly suspect I was becoming that person.
I can't help it if I like to eat dinner by myself and then get lonely and call people because I become immediately convinced that everyone is staring at me going "why is that poor girl eating by herself" and then call a friend and talk about nothing and by "nothing" I mean "things that should really be revelations that are kept to yourself and/or not said at all because they are either really personal or really banal" in defiance of what imaginary thoughts are being thought about me. Okay, maybe yes I can help it.

Good God, I don't care what anybody says, I still love Worlds Apart.

in lieu of writing and because of humidity

there are more pictures than you can shake a stick at at the photojournal.
Is it fall yet?